Step into my Life.

The English Language.

y0ungjay12 — Tue, 02 Jun 2009 15:45:44 +0000

I think that Rowan Atkinsons skit was cool. I dont really get it but i thought that he was a great actor, the fact that he put on his image and stayed the same throughout the whole skit and didnt change, i thought it was awesome, and i know that it is hard to do that. He used inappropriate laungage into a sentence to make people laugh.

OffTopic – So… Idk whats wrong with me, its like my mood changes once its a new season. Ugh instead of migrating like a polarbear or bird during seasons, i change moods. hahah whaat the hell! but im lookin forward to the summer. well not really. i dont hav any plans, i just know that in the summer time im going to relax and chill! thats all. and just go with the flow do anything and everyding. I just wanna go on a vacation to get away from my friends. and sf. i just wanna be lost, be gone for a while! So when i gav my mother her mothers day card i wrote, “P.S. I Need A Vacation!” at the very bottom, but i dnot think she read it, o well. haha. i just wanna go somewhere where nobody can find me! Oh and i got my priority box, it says Freedom of Speech, but idk. it kinda does and dont relate to me, because i usually do speak my mind, but i also do keep shit inside and its really hard for me to express myself! to certain people. so when i did finally express myself to my friends i was like woah! kuz it talked to athena about it and she was lyk. HEY u just your priorty box! i said oh shit i did huh! lol its just weird.

Teacher’s Make…

y0ungjay12 — Wed, 20 May 2009 15:43:58 +0000

I really liked this performance. i thought it was cool. This quote says that society doesnt really value teachers. It says that teachers can’t do anything better so thats why they teach, which is not true. Some teachers teach when they feel like they completed their life and want to teach so they can make an impact on as many other lives that they can. And see kids grow into young adults and make something out of their lives. To me, teachers are very valuable to me, only a certain few. Lol. Because w/o them i wouldnt be who i am today because their part of what makes me, me. Teachers play a role for me as mentors, guidence and just peoople i look up to. Like Mr.S he gives us alot of advice about life, sometimes its non sense but its alright. Teachers encourage me to do better and more than i can. Ms. Thomas my science teacher last year told me i have alot of potential so i was like cool. and then now im trying to live up to my highest potentials. Teachers can give some really good advice, after all they been around for a long time! and kind of been through waht we been through, and sometmies its good to talk to older people besides your parents, sometmies parents cannot be understanding like teachers. I like how he says i make parents realize who their children are, something like that, but i like that because, sometimes your parents dont understand you, and they always jump to conclusions. What happen to when teachers call home to say something good about their students anymore? wtf? all i ever see now is teachers only call home when their child is bad. In elementary school they would call home if your child did something good…!

Outside Blog #2

y0ungjay12 — Sat, 16 May 2009 04:27:58 +0000

Well. today i got a phone call from SFLL (SF Little League) for baseball! they called me lettin me know we have baseball practice/ tryouts tmr.. for the summer league basebal team! i was excited but kinda iffy about it at the same time! because already? this soon! i just wanna hav fun and take a break from things! i just wanna live life! haha dont wanna have any more responsibilities! ah but oh wel! practice tmr at 5-7pm on a saturday tho! at clover field. in the presidio… Whooooo. thats gonna be a really far way from where i live at. but im lookin forward to it. haha but why on a saturday!! why not a school day haha. so lately i been appreciating things a lot more then i use to. real talk. i appreciate the time i spend wit my friends, my neighborhood and everything much more. kinda sounds weird.. hahah. but i was wondeirng around the neighborhood just at first w/ my friend. and i realized how nice my neighborhood really is. and the hills and everything great views, mc claren park is actually pretty nice. haha just everything. im enjoying everything again. Wow. i cant believe school is actually almost over! It seems like the school year is going by so slow. but once it hit May…. damn it goes by in a blink of an eye! its crazy. really. So i really want a retail job. during the summer. i really need that cash. haha

Outside Blog #1

y0ungjay12 — Fri, 15 May 2009 18:15:12 +0000

So. its Friday. eh! no one is at school because of prom. It makes me wanna go to my prom already haha.. i cant wait for my prom! whoo i already know who im going to take! im takin a very special friend from another school. haha. Man life;s been good lately. man life is whatever. life is bipolar it self! hahaha.. but im doing good! lately i been smiling and laughin more then i use to. im really feelin how my life is as now. haha im pretty much satisfied =D. so i just found out my mom really cares if i have a girlfriend or not. haha i always thought she didnt care but we finally had that “talk” the other night. haha because when i came home late around 10ish on a schoolnight my mom asked me where i was! i said i was with my friend…. n than she said You was with that girl again Huh!? and then i got quiet. haha. n than she said I dont want you guys dating! Friends are okay! but dont date right now. Its time to focus on school. You dont have any homework? I said No, theres no homework! n than she went on blabbin about some more stuff so i just closed the door and thought to myself. but its whatev kuz they dnot even know anything about me. they dont even understand me. so they cant blame it on me. because their not doing their part themselves! so i blame them also. As a family we dont even eat dinner togethor and discuss about our days and life and everything. they’ve always been working like 24/7 ugh. they never take a break! but i guess i hav to understand but they should have time for my brother and I also. you know?! All they do is give me money, but thats not what i want. i just wanna talk to them and tell them things. i wanna introduce them to my friends this and that. u know like what normal families do. ever since i was young. it was my grandparents that always took care of me… even till this day! either i take care of myself. or my grandparents take care of me. Sighhhhhhhh..

Brown Eyes/ Blue Eyes

y0ungjay12 — Fri, 15 May 2009 15:38:47 +0000

I thought of Jane Elliots experiment as cool. I dont like how she taught the kids those stuff though. I dont like favoritism at all. Ugh.. it was funny to see the kids reactions. and they didnt really take it serious tho. haha they was just like… “What?? did she just say that?” with a big smile on their face. haha except for when the brown eyed kid punched the blue eyed kid in the gut. haha because he called him brown eyes. Which is not a big deal. haha but mayb to them it was at the time/ in the moment. I dont mind having brown eyes. I dont think people should be judged by their appearances. The video revealed that kids believe in anything that their teacher says or anything an adult says. It revealed that kids were willing to go agaisnt their Friends! because of what adult says and because of different color eyes. they think there not the same and shouldnt hangout anymore. If an adult tried this experiment on us nowadays. i think it will FAIL! because nowadays kids have a mind of their own and can think for themselves. and they know whats right and whats wrong nowdays. i especially feel that this experiment will FAIL! if it was tested with highschool students! This video revealed that before (prejudice) people would be judged by the way they look and treated by the way they look. And people that was aimed at in a bad way would get less priveledges and less of everything in general.

Project Implicit

y0ungjay12 — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 15:50:25 +0000

“Your data suggest little to no automatic preference between European American and African American.”

How did you feel about the test overall?
I felt the test was sort of annoying haha because i kept messin up because i couldnt function right kuz of the right and left keys and how they switched kinda got me frustrated but it was fun overall lol.

Were you surprised by your test results?
No, i was not surprised by my test results because i dont have any preference over any race, i treat every race equally, i dont believe any race dominants another, thats just the person i am!

Do you feel your results were accurate?
Yeah i feel my results were accurate because i dont prefer any race over another.

Did the test change the way you view this particular bias issue?
no.

Did the test change the way yiou view your own beliefs, values and/or behavior?
no.

Are you interested in taking any of the other tests taken by your classmates?
Yeah, im interested in taking other tests on Project Implicit

So I was going through some of my old messages& this is what I found

y0ungjay12 — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 21:05:22 +0000

Mood : Indescribable
These are the best of the best. My down to earth buddies. Even tho most of us drifted apart and faded away friendship wise. Its all good, theres nothing we cant fix… right?

REMEMBER; whatever happens, happens. GO WITH THE FLOW. Don’t regret anything because everything happends for a reason bestfriend. YOU GOT 76187613458 FRIENDS WHO LOVES YOU! So just do what you think is right.

well the answer to your question is in the question itself bruh,”what the point of living?, living is the point of life, and if you still feel like nothings being accomplished in your life then jus remember this, that when ever you get home from somewhere that and you go to sleep, when you wake up in the morning to still be alive, be very greatful that your up live another day, to live that day like there was no yesterday, because letting yourself live to see another day is the greatest accomplishment you can ever achieve

it is true that there’s no point of life because we are born to die but at the same time we have a purpose for being here, you knoe what im sayin’?!?! even when you feel like there nothin to live for there’s always someone to live for. you got somany friend that loves you for who you are not for whatchu have in life, and we’re born to make an impact on as many life as we can, so when we die to be reborn we can reflect off of our own action. and also bruh never depend on the wind to tell you where you should be bruh you heart and your mind is the best compass in the world, your heart tell you who to go to and where to go, and your mind lets you knoe if the right one or if your going the right way. and if your trin’ to get what you cant get just chill and let it come to you, cause if you ever go hunting for fire-flys and rush in really fast and try to catch them they’ll all scatter eveywhere and fly away, but if you chill and be still then everything just might come to you.

IGHT JACKSON…THANKS FOR LOOKIN OUT FO ME…OUTTA EVERY ONE ELSE YOU LIKE THE ONLY ONE THAT LIKE TALKED TO ME….THE ONLY ONE THAT REALLY TOLD ME TO BE CAREFUL AND SHIT…BUT YEAH THANKS MAN YOU LIKE A BROTHER TO ME JACKSON…..WELL YEAH HIT ME UP ANOTHER TIME MAN…..AND GOOD LOOKIN ON THE ADVICE MAN….IGHT THEN HOMIE…WRITE ME BACK SO I KNOW YOU READ THIS…

hahaha 4real tough thats wat i think it sounds like you got tiered of the relationship and just want to break it off but in the future when things like that happen u put even more effort to make it work if ur in a strong real relationship those fillings aint sapose to fazz it becouse your fillings for the girl is so strong….. get me… like i said i think is becouse ur young… not trin to say im old and all…. bt ur not probly ready for those stong love realtionship…. not saying i am…. bt that could be true……feel me…. bt like i said that was a good realtionship because it will better you jack 4real learn from it. and its good you stayin firends wit her.

yeah your rite . i mean i think everything happens for
a reason . but yeah sheesh do what you think is best for
you . kay . haha . and yeah stop being down lifes to short
just kiss the toilet and call it a day . haha . nah eww
jay kay don’t do that . but yeah just try and just
have fun . cause like you said rite school’s just like
flying by . your wasting your time being sad . haha .
but are you ok now or you need ta talk about it more
cause im here for yah kay . and i mean it . oh yeah
and i know rite im just soo freaking funny ahh .

yea i agree brother..ya need 2 start takin ya own advice ya knoe?? stop fixin other peoples rides & enjoys yours ya get me??
life is full of suprises…shitty ones & good ones…its up 2 u 2 find out…& ask if its worth it ya knoe..buh all im tellin u is 2 live it up with or without friends…happiness is within all of us..

hahahahahaha ur fuckin hilarious brother buh i still love ya dude…& yea no problem…life is great,shitty,hurtful,suprising,wonderful,hard…etc…we jus gotta live it up b4 we’re old & stank..lol…ya get me brother? aha

yea i feel you, but trust me, sooner or later youll figure it out, and life will be some awsome shit, just wait. it could get hard, but just
do what you gotta do, chill school, the normal shit. than all the pieces will just fall together(((:
i promise ill hit you up when my car is registered forsureD:
your young, live life, and dont have your gaurds up. because if your gaurds are up, theres a big chance you might be blocking out the happiness your looking for. and no problem little buddy, imma always be here, just cause we aint going to the same school dont mean naaathhhiinnn. hahaha

so chin up little buddy ((((:

call me whenever, you have my digigts! hahah

Just Something I Like.

Deep Impact

y0ungjay12 — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 15:40:23 +0000

What did you think of Kiri Davis’s short film? How did you feel when the little kids chose the “bad” baby? What hidden pressures do you feel as a teenager in 2009? Do you fight them orn follow them?

I thought that the film was sad because what she said was really true. I don’t like how the society feels that way about dark skinned people and if i could change the world, everybody would be equal. real talk!!! Because its not the looks or skin color its really what matters deep down inside and the person you really are inside, truthfully i guess personality over rules. I thought she was brave and have the courage to do what she did in the film, discuss the issue of dark skinned people because if you think about it not many 18 year old or teenage female will really had the guts to stand up and speak out on the behalf of the issue that was being discussed. But at the same time when if you look at it black people are rising and there are a bunch of successful black people out there you know? so yeah. if you think about it every race gets judged, asian, white, mexican not just black. I dont know i dont look at it that way because like i said there are ALOT of dark skinned successful people in the industry and many which we look up to also!!!! so i dont really feel as bad? i dont know..shoot now i feel like im wrong for saying that. Well anyways when the baby chose the bad baby and it happend to be the dark skinned one it was sad because they was dark skinned and were they calling themselves bad people? i think it dont matter what race you are period, not all black people hurt people, most of them are pretty hilarious, not all white people are nice, if u watch america’s most wanted!! there are a bunch of white people that are wanted in america!!! i guess thats all i had to say.

Outside Blog#5 April.2.09

y0ungjay12 — Fri, 03 Apr 2009 04:02:10 +0000

Mood : Chill….

So the week isnt even over yet mr morgan.. damnit haha nothing interesting hapend so far but as i promised i will write my blog entry at night even tho u didnt approve of this lol…but the thing is its not the end of the week yet so nothing interetsing happend so far!! i need to sum up my week u know.. haha but monday was crrrraaazzy! me and main friends went to the movies (Monica, Keith, Andrea, Cobar, and Dez) we went to go c The Haunting of Connecticut and I love you Man.. haha the movies was chill and it was fun because we got to sneak food into the theaters because it would be too damn expensive in the movies haha so we went to round tables and i got me a good ass pizza! that personal maui zaui thang thang haha…. and then we had sum cold stones ice cream after the movies and i couldnt feel my right cheek after finishing the ice cream because it was hella cold hhaa…and then scoo came as usual… it was aight… school’s school, i did the usually went to all my of classes like a good boy;) aha and then went to practice…Today we had a baseball game and a track meet at the same time, the beginning of the week i wasnt tripppin i knew i was just gonna go to baseball came yesterday and go to the track meet today but i changed plans hella last min… i had to make a choice i went to the baseball game today and i felt like i made the right decision so its pretty cool… then when i got back to the scool they still had the track meet going on so i went to check it out…i wish i wouldve ran but i didnt hve my uniform or spikes with me because i thought the track meet wouldve been over!!! but i heard they did a good job so i give them props also! but hopefully next time i get to run with them! so tomorrow im going to a field trip to oakland with my mains and ms williams were gonna go eat dinner then watch a play made by students so it could count as a stretchmark right? haha

Real Friends April.2.09. Do you have a friend who is willing to give you advice you dont want to hear? If so, would you listen? Why or why not? Is ther anyone in your life you would give this kind of advice to? Whom?

y0ungjay12 — Thu, 02 Apr 2009 15:46:23 +0000

I do have a friend that i would give this advice to… actually i would give this advice to any one of my friends close or not as long as i know you i would try to wake you up and try to encourage you to live up to your highest potentials. And yes i do have friends that would give me this kind of advice also… its my homies monica, keith, fatima, henry, athena, and lele… haha these people mean the most to me and is a huge impact on my life and made me who i am today… i always go to them for advice about things and everything and they always tell me something i dont wanna hear.. like they dont take my side dere always agaisnt me.. but in a good way… and they always wake me up and make me realize whats right and whats wrong and i love them for that… i mean ima smart guy but theres just somethings that other people realizes that you dont…you know what i mean? And yes…i always listen to them.. i mean sometimes it seems like i dont wanna listen or i dont care but its not true… i just hate to admit or show that there right…. haha…. or because i dont wanna feel stupid or look dumb…monica always make me realize what kind of person i am deep down and gives me advice about anything and everything!… haha, keith makes me realize dat i need to stop tripppin bout things all the damn time, looks out for me, and gives me some good advice dat i dont want to hear at times not that i dnot wanna hear it but i hate it when hes right lol….athena looks out for me.. wakes me up in the morning but she been lagging lately.. haha but its good because i wake up on my own now… but she also was there for me when i was at my lowest… she gives me advice about life and such… haha… fatima gives me advice when im stuck in between two decisions i have to make and she helps me out by persuading me into the better one…. haha henry tells me to just be coo damn…let things flow and everything will be cool, just be chill and everything just might come my way…lele shit basically i give him advice! lol but it makes me realize how good of a guy i am and what i am capable of..really.. hahah! basically i love all these people to death and they mean everything to me especially monica and keith because there the ones who really knows when deres something wrong with me just by lookin at me…its kinda weird but i love them for that and i guess thts what true friends or good friends are they know when something is wrong with you by just lookin at chu… and plus there always here for me they know bascially everything about me and they always down for me its crazy… sometimes i may treat them unfairly but its all outa love hahahaha… i can go on and on about them but i think i should cut it here haha, if yal reading diz guyz i love yal to death.. remenber dat.. and no matter that sometimes i may not show it yal should know yal my homies at the end of the day and thats never gonna change…..YAAAA DIG? hahaa